There was a time in my life, actually this was pretty recent, that I hated my life…

I even wanted to die….Slash my wrist and bleed to death…

My world was shattered…That no matter how many tears I cried,  there was no one to put that loving hand on my shoulder to reassure me that my world was safe….so confused…clueless on what to do….Every morning I would wake up cursing my life and asking the Lord why didn’t I die in my sleep….

I was so weak then…. A terrible mess….

Sometimes a single “No” can bear consequences that can cause the human mind to think and do things that it would normally be capable of…Because she did love me…..The only one whom, I thought, cares…..She who had become my world….

Then, she was everything to me….She would listen and inspire my stories, guide me in my problems…But then sometimes in life it’s not your or her fault that things don’t work out…Ego clashes….Temper’s flaring…and a whole lot of maniacal shit that was to be sorted out was left unsorted and unconfined. My health deteriorated around this time….But even then i was till optimistic about it…The world lives on hope…Hope was my nostrum….So when the time came, in that one stormy night when I though everything was going to be fine, that I had to be told the truth, I was totally absolutely crashed….

And then that was the start of my own storm….Countless sleepless nights….Endless tears wetting my pillow…I was in much despair that even the smallest bad thing that could happen to me turns into a giant holocaust of emotional breakdown…

But what made everything feel like hell was that she stayed right there….right there like any good friend willing to spend hours consoling a friend…

Just remembering the past makes me remember how painful everything was…

Me

even i’m confused what to do…it feels so good to talk to her back again….but then there’s a nagging feeling that if she’s never gonna be mine why am i even trying ??

Aniket

dnt wry abt the future abt whether sj\he will b urs o nt l*r..leave it 2 the future..dude i dnt knw wat ur scene was bt ya i cn tel u jus tat..if u feel tat u wana b with her nw ..so b wit her..yaar age ka kisi ko kuch ghanta pata hai..

But then life gets you….it does….

Everything lasted for months, but then it was eternity…

I’m just happy that I’m back on my feet right now…. though I can’t say I’m perfectly well….but then how I feel right now is tons better that what i felt back then…

So as of now, come what may, i’ll learn to love my life, my family and friends. Love will always be there, but why hope for something that’s not yet here when you can treasure what you have right now….

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