I am a point in life where I do not know what to do and where to head out to..For the first time in my life I feel myself crashing everyday through an abyss of dismay and fear. Too many reasons to bring me down. I mask my emotions with a smile, a grin and some friends, but behind that mask I’m still the same. I’ve learnt to live a lie, an action which I dislike, but it is better to lie to them than to explain why..I feel empty..totally numb..I cannot write, I cannot read, I cannot do anything !! I’ve been through tough times but then you were there to pick me up when I fell..not as a lover, but as a friend..

I’ve seen days when nothing comes out right
I’m not saying you should call my name
Just give me warmth, stay alone with me tonight
I’ve got nothing left to use in this life
And I’m just dying to see the end of it all

I can’t help wanting to give up and cry
I want to curse and scream till my lungs give
Stumble over this stone-filled road and die
Because there’s nothing left in this life
And I’m tired of pretending to live

I’ve got this feeling inside me
Of wanting to leave it all behind
Because I want to waste away, waste away
Taking only in that abandonment and decay
I just want to waste away

I’m alone in this world for tonight
I’ve called many times but you won’t answer
I’m done pretending I live in the light
And I know that makes you want to run
So run away from me, the bad person I am

I can’t help how terrible I can be
Exhausted and hungry, this is who I am
I can’t stand life, death means so much more to me
And I’m still thinking of wanting you
Even if I’m not good enough to be with you

I’ve got this feeling inside me
Of wanting to leave it all behind
Because I want to waste away, waste away
Taking only in that abandonment and decay
I just want to waste away

I want to die quietly tonight
I’ve got nothing left to lose
I’ll always keep you in my sights
As I waste away, waste away..

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